The following describes my misery.

No! I am not Prince Hamlet, nor was meant to be;

Am an attendant lord, one that will do

To swell a progress, start a scene or two,

Advise the prince; no doubt, an easy tool,

Deferential, glad to be of use,

Politic, cautious, and meticulous;

Full of high sentence, but a bit obtuse;

At times, indeed, almost ridiculous—

Almost, at times, the Fool.

So this is the end. This is the finality of my carreer - acceptable mediocrity. This moment, this culmination of glances, thoughts, all as effervescent as a cloud, the pinnacle of my exhistence so quickly dissolving into chaos - NYU GSP.

This is the way the world ends
This is the way the world ends
This is the way the world ends
Not with a bang but with a whimper

I think I am dying from disappointment.

I feel feverish. My body tingles and my head swirls, overcome with an irrational sense of vertigo. I hate NYU.

You hear me, you idiots? I hate you. How dare you recommend me for the GSP program? I am a writer, I belong in the College of Arts and Sciences! How could you have the audacity to place me with mumbling rejects?

I am inadequate. I am going to transform into a Jude the Obscure-esque wraith, pining for a university education while being seduced into an unhappy marriage coupled with social rejection. I shall die poor and alone, my talents wasted under the weight of cultural judgement.

I shall amount to nothing better than a pitiful drone, a craftsman, a faceless worker in a world as homogenous and unpitying as my own dwindling intellect.

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This was me upon opening my envelope from NYU.

My life sucks.

Yesterday, I got a letter in the mail from NYU saying, in the most polite terms, that I was not accepted into the College of Arts and Sciences but into their GSP program. A veiled attempt at commenting - "Sorry, we don't think you're smart enough for NYU itself, but we're willing to ostracize you, like a Jew circa WWII, into a program that masquerades as equal to our other colleges."

Fuck you NYU!

I could go to BU or UM without an inferiority complex and retain an equally impressive education. Those NYU bastards won't see me groveling at the feet of CA&S demi-Gods. Screw them.